Wow, it really has been awhile since I've written in here...sorry to all of you who check this regularly. God has really been working in my heart these last couple weeks, placing me in situations that are super uncomfortable for me, but incredibly important for growth.
Last week I was the leader of the Kitchen. So what does that mean? Well, it means I go with the leader to get the food (thankfully he created the menu, so I just went shopping), I organize my team, help make the food, and make sure we have enough of everything. There was some struggle to communicate my role and what I felt should be done (with the language and all), but my biggest thing was getting over myself. My insecurities in the kitchen and what people thought of me...and of course the language. It was a challenge to say the least. A highlight of the week was Pancakes for dinner Saturday night....I was happy, but I think that it wasn't really a "normal" or favorite of the guys...they weren't in a hurry to get seconds :p. I'm finding that if you want to make these guys happy at meal time, you always have to have rice haha.
This week I transitioned into the leader of the entire group. I have a lot more peace about this role than the other one. God is showing me where my strengths and weaknesses are...my strengths are in praying and encouraging the team to get to know each other. My weaknesses is in coordinating big events with the kitchen. One of the guys had a birthday this week...thankfully I have a strong kitchen leader this week...so she took much of the responsibility. Tonight I am planning a game night! I want us to actually enjoy each other :p ... I think we're getting there ...there is a lot more conversation at the dinner table and people are laughing more :) I'm going to miss this group.
God is working on me...its a long hard road, I often feel like crying because I have to push through so much personal insecurities and struggles. But I know that I am getting stronger and my relationship with the Lord is deepening.
I surprise myself sometimes :) ... this last Sunday I helped lead worship with one of the guys at a local church and later I shared my testimony (a few sentences in Spanish and the rest in English). God is blessing me with moments of boldness haha...and I am speaking a lot more than I was before. What a joy to know I'm able to communicate myself sometimes :).
This week isn't over yet..still more leading to do....I am grateful for a faithful God who gaurds my coming and going, and holds me firmly in His hand.
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